wendy house

In 1979 I realised the full implications of an electric friend.  Charged with excitement and a six pack of batteries I wasn’t too sure where I could get my hands on an electric friend.  I settled for some curling tongs instead.  This probably explains much of my subsequent love life.

Tubeway army sang ‘Are friends electric‘

Jumping onto a crowded rush hour Paddington train I slump into the one remaining isle seat.  Resting my brow against the seat infront. Breathing slowly, eyes shut, shut-out the crowded world.

Boy in window seat (BIWS):  are you alright?

Wendy:  yes, I’m alright, thankyou for asking, you have a kind heart

BIWS: bad day at work?

Wendy:  time of the month, normal pain, nothing to worry about I’ll just close my eyes and drift away

I surf the pain to some other consciousness, completely missing the train journey…. ….and almost missing my stop… 

At 16yrs, the first time the pain stole my consciousness was from a chemist queue. I clutched a packet of unpurchased pain killers.  My unconsciousnes chose to examine the shop floor.  A  kindly woman carried me to the local Health Centre.  I woke in her arms and gifted her the contents of my stomach. 

At the health centre I begged the Doctor for pain killers.  He said pain killers were not warranted because I’d just puke them up. That the pain was natural.  He prescribed lying on my back until I felt able to walk.  Then I should go home. 

With his words the pain merged perfectly with incredulity.  Not offered a glass of water to swill the bile from my mouth.  I could taste the incredulity.  Stung by the indifference of professional caring staff.  As soon as I could I slid from the trolley and stumbled out of the Health Centre.  To the chemist shop.  The kind lady who’d carried me had gone.  No-one knew her name.  No-one to thank. 

Thank you kind lady.

Since that day I’ve learned to accept, immerse, and surf the experience to unanticipated, inarticulable ways and places.  PMT and Cheese. Mmmmmmmm…

In 1979,  at 15yrs, I was in full fledged teenage identity crisis. A skinny insignificant white girl living in a box on a 1960’s Wimpy Housing Estate.  Several albums captured the insignificance, energy and disorientation.  I’ve never liked Supermarkets.

The Clash sang Lost in the supermarket

In 1979 I was about to take my first set of exams,  Oxford University ‘O’ levels.  Family and the School’s career officer were encouraging me to think about my career.  Should I be a

• a police person?  Not allowed,  too short. 
• a jet fighter pilot?  Not allowed, too girl.  
• a nurse?  No,  too much cleaning icky messes and being nice to sick people. 
• a train driver?  No,  I’d have to follow-tracks and I like making my own way.
• an Engineer?  It’s what dad wants me to be,  but it seemed just a bit practical and dull to a 15 year old me.
• an architect?  Hmmmm… …possibilities….   how long to get qualified…  7yrs?!  I arranged some work experience for myself in an Architects office to get an idea of what 7 years would lead to…

Meanwhile, XTC were Making plans for Nigel who apparantly had a future in, a national industry, British Steel